The Bear

the script - break even

it describes me perfectly right now cause "when a heart breaks, it don't break even"

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^ He's made for Ms Jennifer S
| "here's a hug from me to you but if you don't talk to
| me there won't be anyone to give it too"


(if you do read this, I just wanted to end off with a smile, and a memory that I will cherish and hopefully you will too).

- Adzz

"Unless you love someone, nothing else makes any sense"

This quote isn't mine, it's from a past friends favourite author, search it up if you're curious =]

Anyway the whole point of me writing it up there, is because funnily enough that quote is completely true and i've realised that.

I'm not going to talk in third person view like alot of other bloggers cause that's just not me.

For my whole life, i don't think i've ever loved a person the way i loved a girl who i was with a bit back. But ironically i always seem to hurt the people i love more than anyone else =/

it's only because of the break up that i've come to the conclusion that if i love someone, then i need to show it, not through gifts and presents, but through action eg not hurting them.

i'm taking baby steps, but i think i'm almost there. it might take me a while still, but once i do get to that point, then will i be truly happy.

-Adzz

p.s just in case that girl that i mentioned above is reading it, don't worry e.e cummings is your favourite and hence is not my favourite or is anyone that i have a particular liking for. =]

Letting go

Lupe Fiasco Lyrics from the way you are remix:

First Rule Never Let Them Change You
Rule Two
Do You To The Fullest, And Never Be Ashamed To
You Just Good At What They Cant
And They Hate That They wanna Paint You
Any Color Put You in Another
What They Dont Accept
And What They Dont See
The Best Thing Is What You'll Already Be

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hmm, well i realised sometimes you need to let go, even though you don't want to, it's better to.

if you love something, then you should let it go, and if it comes back then it's meant 2 be.

it's her choice in the end.

-Adzz

The Way you Are (remix) - Bruno Mars ft Lupe Fiasco

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He loved her. He wasn't good enough for her.

He always believed that you become like those you spend your time with. Maybe that was part of it. He loved all the things about her that he wasn't. Openness, purity, compassion. She was smiles and sunshine, and he belonged to the night. He wanted to be a good man, ached for it, but maybe some people were just born better at it than others.

-A

Man In the Mirror

i've come to realise, that i can't make an impact on the world or anyone around me unless i change myself first.

Michael Jackson was an inspiration and a very wise man. He realized that instead of trying to change the world from how you see it, change yourself to how you want the world to change and people will notice and do the same.

It's only when you lose someone that you realize how special they were to you.

Michael Jackson, can be defined as the world's greatest entertainer, yet so many lost interest or support in him in his later years it's appalling to see that people only notice some of his other great works after his death.

Same as Tupac, Eazy-E, Bruce Lee, Aaliyah and many more people who have given a voice to those who have none including themselves.

But now, all i can do is pray and look up to the sky to see if maybe they're looking down, guiding not just me but all of us, giving a little piece of the magic they had.

-A

Outrun the Rain

The quotes from this song sums up how i feel at the moment....

"Cause of what I did, now we no longer talking.
Yes I deserve it...
Tell me how to keep you here

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You're asking me to go, but I don't want to leave.
You said forever, I would like eternity.
Baby one plus one should equal you and me.
Cause you are my shelter from the rain (Shelter from the rain)
I thought you'd hold on, you said you're too weak
I said lets talk about it, you wouldn't even speak
It used to be us, girl now there's no one here but me.
Cause I finally could outrun the rain."

yea that sounds about right =/ i don't know, i know i love you and i've tried to talk to you so i can get through to you, but like it says in the song...you don't want me 2 speak...

Jen, you do have a point and if i were you, i'd be pretty pissed n confused, cause i wouldn't know what parts of you are true, like i'd question myself..."was it true? did he really like me? or was it all games? is he just the same as he was before?"

i could concoct a billion excuses so it'd seem like i wasn't at fault, but what's the use of making up all of them when the only way 2 get through to you is by telling you the truth.

yes i did go clubbing that night, and yes i lied to you about my whereabouts. simply enough. when i was at the club, i didn't dance with any girls, all i did was drink.

the real reason why i lied is because of what happened when it was Thomas' birthday and i was meant 2 go out with them clubbing and you didn't want me to go so i stayed with you.

i know how upset you'd get if i told you i was going clubbing as of what can happen at clubs, especially when there are drinks involved and also girls around. it was a stupid thing to do, purely because i don't think anyone wanted me to leave the house that night =/

i didn't just make you upset...my mother was crying that whole night coz she smelt alcohol on my breath *sighs*

ahh i'm just stupid =/ when i was with you. apart from when i lied, everything else was actually improving. i wasn't lying to anyone, i was happy as i had a girl who i loved and loved me, and everyday just seemed brighter.

i'm an absolute dick for fucking it up. i'm going to be here for you always, and will keep trying to talk to you, cause i promised i wouldn't let go of you and that i did mean it when i said i wanted to be with you always.

i just hope you read this Jen =/

- Adam

Song: Taj - Outrun the Rain

p.s that picture up above reminded me of you....

thoughts running through my mind.

i wish that i could,
go back to the time, that i saw you last,
before all this came to pass,
i should've stayed a little longer, to talk and laugh with you,

but instead i'm sitting here alone, coping with the fact that you had to go,

cause since you've been gone, things just ain't the same,
and though life moves on, your memory remains,
ill try to be strong, to overcome the pain,

of living without you here girl.

this guy misses you,
his heart and soul do too,
he just doesn't know what to do,

he always looked up to you,
but now he'll have to look a lil higher, jus to talk to you,

Jen,

i've learnt from my whole life that people like to come and go,
sometimes we must learn to say goodbye to those we've come to love n hold,
but i never thought i'd see the day that i'd have to close your door,
i guess what i am trying 2 say,
is that i'm not ready to let you go...